Not Spiritual Enough
Most days I feel not spiritual enough. I look up from where I am and say, no, you don’t know what you’re talking about. You have not read your Bible in a week, you forgot to pray about that one thing you promised you would, you’re just not spiritual enough. You failed.
But it’s all a distraction. It’s all my head and my humanity taking me away from time I could be spending with my Savior. I really believe that there is no such thing as not spiritual or spiritual enough. There is only where your heart is and where you are allowing your heart to be led.
Are you consumed with the day to day mundane? The betterment of your personal situation? Or are you thinking of others, striving to reach out and love them in some way?
I have my good days and my bad days, as do you I am sure. But then I remember why I am here, why I have a hope, a certain peace, a joy, a sense of forgiveness for the all the wrong that I have done. The grace and love of Jesus.
And if I cannot take that and offer it back to others then it doesn’t matter what I’m praying or how much I’m reading. Somewhere along the way though, I have fallen in love with a Savior and now my life, my everything, is about making sure that others can experience that, that others can know their full worth.
So although there may be days where I am distracted, I am neither here nor there on the “spiritual scale.” And that is okay, because I have a purpose that rests in him, and I cannot imagine that anyone is perfect when it comes to their spirituality.
So, live out your calling in Him, and don’t get distracted by the little voice in your head that tries to point out all your shortcomings.
This is not a post to discount spiritual discipline, prayer, or reading the Word. Those things are important and I do very much enjoy my conversations with God and my times in scripture. But you know what? I have faked it too many times, you have faked it too many times. Let’s be honest about what we are doing, who we are, and why we are doing it instead of quoting a verse just to quote it or praying out of rote memorization. Jesus wants us- our lives, not just our empty words or actions, that yeah, to be honest… might make us appear really spiritual.
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Thank you for this great reminder.
wow .. totally understand that. it seems that usually find themselves on one end of that spectrum or another, you know? currently, i’m on the other. and that is just as bad.
have you ever read “celebration of discipline” by richard foster? i’m just curious
I have not. I will have to look that up. And don’t think of yourself as on a spectrum! Just admit where you feel you are to God, and I think that is the first step in growing your relationship.
Sorry it took me so long to get back to you. We moved this weekend and it’s been CRAZY! Emotionally and Physically God is with me though, and that is a huge comfort!
I think that we need to give ourselves a spiritual break! Christ wants a relationship with us, not a slave. He knows and understands that we forget, we get busy, we prioritize the wrong thing, yet he loves us. Unconditionally.