Shalom Existence

Lately I have been wondering about a lot.

My own ability for one, what is it that I am supposed to be really focusing on? I felt for so long that it was writing, but then you go through certain periods (early pregnancy, lol) where you feel like dead weight.

Then you start even wondering why it was you felt like you had a calling or a talent, and in this case I am referencing my recent questions about God. I cannot buy that He does not want us to question, nor delve deeper into the world of sometimes fiction that has become “His religion.” When did the intellect get thrown out of Christianity for the pure acceptance of what we are told? When were Bible stories translated to children’s stories with entire chunks left out? Was it intended to be this way?

So, I am giving myself a challenge. Instead of complaining about it, oh so easy isn’t it, I am going to read and study what I don’t know or don’t understand and carry the responsibility of knowing what I believe. What an enlightening concept! I no longer want to be thrown off by accusations against my faith or hear an argument and wonder what if… I know there aren’t always exact answers but it is more about guarding my heart, strengthening my faith and learning more than anything else.

Hopefully I can share some of my journey with you, intermittent with the woes of pregnancy and day to day life I am sure!

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